After my sidelining injury over two weeks ago, I went back to the gym today. It was so hard to convince myself to go. Yet felt so good just to be there. My ankle is still slightly swollen and slightly bruised but it no longer hurts. It just feels weak.
I've ran on it twice since the fall. Thanksgiving day and last night. Both times about 3 miles. My first half marathon is coming up soon, January 2nd and I need to be ready. It's only about 5 weeks away.
The Santa Monica - Venice Christmas Run is coming up even sooner on December 11th. I'm debating which run to sign up for the 10K which is a more challenging distance or the 5K that the rest of the family is doing. In all honesty, I'd really like to do both. My reasoning is I won't feel satisfied with just running a 5K as it's not challenging enough for me BUT Mariyn (and a lot of our family) is going to run it so I want to run it and support her. To run both would be really good training for my half marathon . . . as you can see, I'm torn.
Today, I did body pump and cycle. I haven't weighed in and I don't really want to. I didn't want to face the damage today and be a downer. I might weigh in tomorrow. One of my friends at the gym said I was looking thinner. I don't really think that is even possible. I was fairly active painting my house, working on projects and cleaning but I know I didn't make the best food choices and I know how important diet is.
Since my ankle was still weak and it's been 3 weeks since I've done any weight training, I didn't lift as heavy as I normally do. I still pushed myself though, in cycle I could feel my ankle was getting tired and worn out but not sore. Did I mention it felt so good to go back to my normal routine? I missed my workouts, my gym friend and I think they missed me. It's good to be back and besides being sidelined due to pain, I really think I needed the break to mentally re-charge it was a good break.
A lot of ladies at the gym are getting certified to become body pump instructors and cycle instructors. Part of me really wants to do this, but the other part of me doesn't. It's so expensive and just not practical (time or financially) for us right now with our investment coming along. One day, I'd love to do some sort of personal or group training for women who want to achieve their goals by completing events like triathlons or runs. I really think I'd love it and could be good at it... but I have to get more accomplishments under my belt too.
I am extremely bitter right now. Trying very hard to deal with the emotions I am going through. I wish I was back in the saddle. I wish I had time to even run at home in the evening. I feel my time has been stolen from me and I am not taking it gracefully. I am burned out and struggling just to get things taken care of. I stay up til sometimes midnight just trying to get housework and important projects done. I angry. I want my old life back, or atleast the life that was more schedule friendly. I am SO jealous of those who are talking about marathons and fitness activities. I will live vicariously through you.
ReplyDeleteI understand Sherri. I will soon have to get a job and I'm having a hard time dealing with the idea of having time constraints again and fitting in *me* time. As it is, my running time comes at night, after I put the kids to bed it's the very last thing I do but one of the most important things for myself. I'm fortunate that I have a running partner and our schedule is compatible.
ReplyDeleteGlad your back at it! I can't wait to get back to the gym. It's been a couple weeks for me too.
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